I’m thinking seriously of putting together a “red envelope” for my husband. Inside it, I would enclose some hand-written letters - letters telling him how I feel about being dominated - letters giving him permission to do things to me - letters that he could use to prove that I had consented…

… to things like spanking - and forced sex.

I would give him the red envelope to put in a safe place.

That way, if I ever changed my mind, if I ever said, “no,” he wouldn’t have to take “no” for an answer.

Of course, if I withdrew consent, then his letters wouldn’t mean anything - except - that they would create reasonable doubt.

It’s a dangerous thing. I could give him the ability to rape me - and get away with it.

“Mrs. Johnson,” his attorney would ask, “is this your handwriting?”

“Yes.”

“Does this letter say that you want him to force himself on you - even if you say ‘no’ - even if you change your mind?”

“Yes.”

“So, how is he supposed to know that this time you really meant it?”

“I… I don’t know.”

I would have to be careful to only give him permission to do certain things. For instance, spanking… the letter would say that he could spank me on the bottom and backs of thighs only - but that if I said “no” - he could keep going.

Another letter would say that he could force himself on me, but only in the front - not in the bottom - and only in private - and only by holding me down - not tying me down.

He may not hit me, he may only spank me.

… and only in private.

It would be very dangerous - and incredibly erotic.

I would be giving him the keys to my body and soul.

He would never actually use the letters for anything.

But he could.

And knowing that he could, I would be just a little bit more afraid of him.

And I love that idea.

Let’s see…

My Darling Husband…